Friday, February 04, 2005 @5:33 PM
JUst trying to 'pen' it down reminds me to slap myself. Ken was right to say my work was crap... it really is... i knew it before i presented... thats why i didn't even want to say a signal word to defent myself... it has to come through to me... i have 5weeks left and i am still leading my concentration away about stuff that i have my live time to pursue. What have i been doing since the last cirt? I didn't even presented for my last crit... and put up a good show they say... i'm sorry, i let myself down... i've wasted 2 presentations... 5weeks means my CNY has got to be work work work... this i've got to do, i didn break down for nothing... i broke down because i know i can do much better, i broke down because i hate myself for sinking deeper into space after the presentationless-presentation. and i broke down to mark a stop to this crap.
After a short rest, i got myself back up and started on my report that i got to know about yesterday... not even a full day for me to cheer myself up.. ;p well, at least i completed my report with help from Shawn. Thankz. And sorry Bro5 for the cold-shoulder yesterday.